On Beginnings

Isn’t that a fitting subject for the first real post on this blog ? Beginnings — even new beginnings, fresh starts, first times — are something we are given everyday, if we know how to recognize the subtle signs that help us know them for what they are. But sometimes they are not so subtle. They are grand. They make us feel elated and so full of pride and excitement that we would like to climb to the rooftop and shout out to the world : “Isn’t that wonderful ?”

The particular beginning I’d like to tell you about is one of these grand beginnings. When I think about it, it unleashes in my head the full fireworks of the majestical opening of Monteverdi’s Orfeo (or, if Monteverdi isn’t your thing, this might do). It makes my heart sing and brings a smile to my face. And yet, to an objective eye, it probably is nothing to be excited about.

You see, when I was little, my parents sent me to the music school. There I learnt to read music and to play an instrument. But there is something I could never master : improvisation. Give me a score and I’ll play it for you ; I’m even rather good at sight-reading. But there has to be a score. Without a score, I am lost. I have no idea where to begin, how to place my fingers on the keyboard, how to pick up a theme and develop it into something that sounds as if it had been carefully written. That’s simply something I am unable to do.

So when I taught myself (from a book) how to knit and looked for the first time at a pattern, I thought : “There again ! Scores !” I was amazed by the sheer complexity of it. The first cardigan pattern I knit felt overwhelming. The first lace pattern felt even worse. I couldn’t see the underlying logic in it, let alone grasp how one could possibly design lace. I began to think : “Maybe that’s a recurring pattern (ha!) in my life. Maybe I’ll be a score-reader and a pattern-user for ever.” Then I noticed I was beginning to interpret patterns, exactly as I would interpret a praeludium or a sonata : changing ornaments (like edgings) here and there, modifying shapes and rhythms, twisting the genres. If I look back, there are few finished objects of which I could say : “Modifications : none.” This is, I think, because, as gifted as the designer may be, I need to put a little of myself in what I knit, a little of my heart and soul.

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You may see by now where all this is heading. One year ago, my grandmother gave me some yarn. It’s green, gorgeous, merino, and there is too little of it to make a pullover or a cardigan, but too much of it to turn it into a scarf or a hat (or it would have to be a whole collection of green scarves and hats). I first spent a lot of time on Ravelry looking for a short-sleeved pattern I liked (without success), then for a bolero pattern I liked. I found it. I knit the main part of it. Then we (Mr Brindelaine, the cat and I) moved to another country. When I got back to my bolero, several months later, I also got my senses back. What on earth would I do with a bolero ? A bolero is something posh and elegant. In the past, I have tried very hard to be elegant, but had to conclude regretfully that being elegant is not for me. A bolero usually doesn’t provide much coverage in the neck and back area, and being who I am and living where I live, I’d die for cold wearing it.

So I frogged it. I looked at that beautiful yarn, soft and springy to the touch, with its fresh green reminding me of tiny new leaves burgeoning on trees after a long winter. It said to me : “Short-sleeved top!” I took a deep breath and answered : “Then I’m afraid I’ll have to design my own pattern for you, my friend !”

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And that is the grand beginning. I didn’t dive head first into Designing World, though. I took my precautions and googled : “designing raglan sweater” (or something like that). I found this handy tutorial, did my math and cast on. By some miracle, it worked. Of course, it’s not perfect. I’m now past the raglan increases and I can see some mistakes : purled stitches which should have been knit on the sides of the raglan increases (because I’m using mock cables separated by purled stitches and it took me some time to figure how to integrate them, and because I’m not brave enough to do what I should : frog and re-start), cables beginning too early or to late.

But anyway, it’s working. The first thing I ever cast on without following a pattern is growing on my needles. And that, for me, is enough to summon all the trumpets of Monteverdi (or of a certain far, far away galaxy).

A Welcome

One day I thought, “I’d like to have a blog about knitting.” This is it.

Of course, talking or writing about knitting is intimately connected with talking or writing about what makes a human life, its small and big events, its joys and sorrows, its welcomes and farewells. Knitting is one of the underlying fabrics of my day-to-day life. My mood influences the colours I choose, the textures I would like to feel under my fingers, wether I would prefer to knit lace or cables, intricate colourwork or stripes, or just plain stockinette stitch. It even influences my tension. But the reverse is also true : knitting influences my mood. It frustrates me, delights me, soothes me, fills me with expectation. It gives me the necessary space to pause and think while keeping my fingers busy with its peaceful rhythm. It has become part of who I am.

So, come in and let’s chat about it !